was talking to mel over dinner when i realised to my horror that the year was close to coming to an end
and i was stunned into silence
and i swore i felt my heartbeat accelerating and waves of helplessness wash over me when i realised that once again i had done and achieved just about nothing in the course of an entire year.

there is no denying that the past 363 or so days have been relatively eventful and filled and also that i have grown tones
(more like aged actually..i feel older..i think one would be able to make out the wrinkles and white hair soon)
i've tried my hand at working - from boring desk jobs, to hiding in between shelves at a bank to pouring over income tax forms and now finally facing a class of children
got my first taste of being fired from a job
received the much dreaded A level results
get admitted into university to begin a new phase of life
meet new people
miss my old friends
won somethings
lost some
found one that i hope to keep for a long time to come
its kinda been a whole whirlwind of events
an entire rollercoaster ride on which i've barely had time to catch my breath
and somehow it seems that no matter how long after..i'm still going round in circles
the music of the carousel doesnt stop
and i have to continue running the course

i dont for certain what the next year will bring
but i guess it'll have its own set of joys and woes
tears and laughter
and i can only look expactantly forward that it will all be good.
no resolutions for me
i will only just hope and pray.